Friday, May 31, 2013

Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within


...I love.......

I love music with heart and passion.
I love the smell of the ocean.
I love turtle necks and jeans.
I love good conversation.
I love black and white.
I love creating.
I love simple.
I love fall.
I love joy.
I love art.
LOVE
I love junk.
I love sewing.
I love winter.
I love simplicity.
I love a challenge.
I love football.
I love laughter.
I love big sweat shirts.
I love walking in the rain.
I love to smile.

I love that this is who I am and that I love all of these things.

Phyllis Hyman Video By Request: The Strength of a Woman


...CAN YOU GO WITHOUT?

 




....we all know that make-up is an awesome powerful tool.....it’s a way for us to express yourself....makes us feel attractive...but is it all its cracked up to be...what it its something you can not go without.....can it be an obsession? A crutch? An addition?  Could you go without any make-up at all for a day?  A week?  A month?.....Could you be seen in public with a naked face????  

I read on the internet that 70% of chicks won’t leave the house without their make-up......more than half said they wore make-up 24/7........wow!  I for one can not imagine wearing make-up 24/7.....I have never been on of those gals who carry their make-up & do numerous touch ups...I do however like to refresh my lip color...sometimes....it is what it is....it is also not unusual for me to bare my naked face at the grocery store....movies, shopping...heck I even bare all at work.....no biggie.
  Its not about taking a sabbatical from wearing make-up because not wearing make-up is better or bad...that’s not the case....its more about taking a break from make-up to gain a better understanding of the relationship you have with make-up.  Why do you feel the NEED to “fix” your face before leaving the house...or seeing a friend...and for some gals...they fix their face before they go to the gym...ugh!  Do you really need to shellac your face for people to notice you...can you feel comfy in anything less than contoured cheeks and long luscious lashes?

Make-up is a very powerful tool with the ability to transform...to incite imagination & creativity...but when the option to wear it or not turns into a necessity...is it still just a tool????   Have you ever looked...I mean really looked at your natural make-up free face?  I know it’s a bit scary even thinking about showing the world your bare face......but it is somewhat liberating....could you do it?

I think its so interesting to explore the relationship we as women ...and some men...have with make-up...explore within ourselves why we wear it.....whether you wear make-up or not..you do it for your own reasons...I am not judging you nor should you judge me....we ALL need to do what makes us truly happy.   I for one can GO WITHOUT....

 

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

JIMMY CLIFF - I CAN SEE CLEARLY NOW


...no longer an option....not an option



..well....I am 50 yrs & almost 10 days old....life is kinda at a crossroads of sorts for me....there are two paths...I  get to chose either my life...the life I create from this point on...or the “No longer an option” path.......for me...I choose my life.....I choose to keep moving forward ...getting stuck in the past..crying over the woulda..shoulda..coulda....is No longer an option.

 .... brings me to what in my life is no longer an option...accepting the realization that I will never have the body I had at 21.....or finally coming to grips with the fact that the gal I see in the mirror is actually ME....the person that other people see..not just a temporary detour from the 25 yr old face that is permanently imprinted in my mind’s eye....hot young perky boobied me is no longer an option...I can be an acceptable old gal of 50....throw on some red pumps and reveal a slightly saggy décolletage......I can ever walk out the door feeling like I have it all going on....I look hot & anything could happen....gone...gone...gone...I am not even in the game anymore.

 
...I have to say....that game...did it..lived it...done it..over.....not interested ....the tradeoffs.....when I good out..sure I wanna look good....sure I enjoy attention....but I am not preoccupied with my hair...LOL...I have none...hahaha.......or my make up & who may notice ...I actually would rather be in the moment...in real time...the opinions of others mean less to me...sometimes my mouth overrides my brain...my mouth overflows with crap....whatever I am thinking just comes out with out reason....not to hurt others...just its time I out “me” out there...!  I am gonna laugh louder...hug harder....cry more....kiss longer.....love better...understand & accept  others........................................all in high heels ..of course

Heather Headley- Me Time


...time to recharge the batteries......

..having it all…career..family..home..friends………let’s not forget laundry…dishes…..cleaning the house….weeding the garden….blah blah blah…..we as woman are old & believe we can have it all…….and we can….but what happens when having it all sucks the life right out of us……leaves us no time nor energy left for ourselves? ?   I know for sure that we as woman put a tremendous amount of stress & pressure on ourselves…is it a chick thing…I don’t know…but being  a daughter..a mother..a wife….a professional….all these roles combined leave me for one feeling like there is no time for me to take care of me…..sure sure…we have all heard it & many of us have said it……take time for yourself…put yourself on your list….ha!  My damn list is so long there is no room to add me!

 At what point do we as women go from spending hours primping for a big date to  just being happy you have clean undies…..Oh I remember the days when I would take all day to get ready…shower..shave & exfoliate till I glissened…a fresh coat of nail polish….tweeze a few wild eyebrow hairs……all before I “did my face & hair” ….. oh and the hours of pre thoughts of the clothes…oh yes..the clothes……and shoes……we are talking an all-day process……those were the days we I was my own priority.  What happened?

 
I will tell you what happened….after all that primping & prepping I looked so good I snagged a guy…next thing ya know I have a family…a baby and a house…….my priority changed…..when you are in the middle of making bottles…checking homework….making boxed Mac & cheese….you don’t even think about making yourself a priority…..well....untill your hubby pisses you off….then of course life is not fair or equal…it’s all his fault..you never have any time for yourself…etc etc etc…lol we have ALL experience that! But now…some um-teen years late..its time to make me one of my priorities…the question is how?

 
..this isn’t anything new...I have been having this conversation for years.....I have talked with other chicks....some of which are like me...longing for “me” time & others seem to desire less “me time” and more “we” time...lol....I have to say there is always one common denominator....women...myself – BIG TIME....seem to have trouble even feeling like we are worthy of being put on our own list...sad but true....I have blogged about self worth...or should I say lack of self worth before.....I have to wonder...do men have self worth  and me..”guy” time issues????  We as women...well most of us...seem to be awesome at project management in our work lives and even family time & budgets...but when it comes our our personal “me” time...seems like our boobies aren’t the only thing that drops.  lol  We all need to recharge our batteries.....hehe...those ones too...just saying....LOL.....if our battery fizzles out...so are we.

Friday, May 24, 2013

....50 & bald...

yep.....I did it...actually both...shaved my head & turned 50.....to be honest both are pretty cool!

I was kind of nervous the last few days leading up to my new "do"...lol or should I say my "no do" look..lol........originally I had planned to shave my head at my 50th bday party...the owner said lets do it on the dance floor for all to see.....at first I was cool with the idea...but after thinking about the mess, etc...and most important the significance of the act of shaving my head..I changed my mind.....shaving my head was something of a renewal and or rebirth of me for me....did I really want to share this experience with everyone?  Nope...there are a few people in my life who I would love to share my head shaving experience with......one of which is my bbf of 45 years..yep...we have been gal pals for 45yrs....having my bff there felt right.  So I did it..cost me $15....the stylist argued with me...didn't want to do it...I guess she did not realize I was a paying customer & she..the stylist was being paid to do a service......damn....but finally she did it & I LOVE IT! 

I love it so much & have enjoyed the interesting kind of attention I have gotten only after a week...I am seriously thinking I may wanna keep the shaved head look for awhile....I will post pics for all to see....I also will blog about the crazy way people treat me as a bald chick.

My bday "weekend".....I call it that because as I said my long time bff came for the weekend...so we kicked off the weekend on Thurs night.....being together again is just like when we were young....we laugh till we cry....actually now that we are both 50..we laugh till be pee our pants.....true...sad...but true...lol  We did some shopping on Friday morning before heading home....and by "home" I mean where were grew up....we were going up for the night to attend a bon fire at a fellow high school classmates...what a great night...so nice seeing kids we went to school with...to hear about their lives now.....I enjoyed it.  We also had to do the local watering holes.....which is always fun...ya just never know who you are gonna meet...or in my bbf's case...ya just never know who is gonna hit on ya.....lol ......male..female....whatever.....I don't judge...lol

So all in all our quick trip home & back with my bbf was the best.....what a great time. I adore her....45 yrs....damn......that's a friendship!

We opened our house to friends for a very simple & delicious buffet meal prepared my another good friend...everything was yummy.....of course I didn't really eat till the next days...the Dirty Whore's Bath Water got the best of me....I drank my dinner as did ALOT of my gal pals....yes DWBW was our signature drink for the night......it kicked out butts.......but tastes so good.

Drunk....the gals laced up their corsets...yes I asked all the gals to sport a corset on my big drunken night out...and they did....we all looked HOT....and drunk......I remember waiting for everyone to get outside so we can hit the road.....I was sparwled out on the hood of a car in all my glory...that should have been an indication of where the evening was headed...lol   To make a long story short...we danced...we drank..we laughed....we drank.....we had a great time.  I am truly blessed by wonderful people in my life. .....bald & 50........what more can I ask for......







Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Sophie B. Hawkins (playlist)


.....what a plan


….life sure does get crazy from time to time. I haven’t blogged in a while…not because I haven’t has anything going on…that’s for sure!  Its more like I have been trying to get some sort of routine in place….which has been a rough ordeal…still don’t have a game plan….and anyone who knows me knows I NEED a game plan…call it what you want….I will admit I am a list maker…..and follower…..I need to know what I am doing and or what I should be doing at all times…..no fly by the seat of my pants  kinda gal here…..which is kinda funny…I haven’t always been like this….I thick to call my life organized caos….as a child/teen I was a mess..my room was a pig pen…could never find anything….now I have to have everything in its place from  my forks in the silverware drawer to undies in my panty drawer….it’s a sickness…I KNOW!

 

…anyways…our family schedules have been jacked up…my hubby & I  both returned to work on the same day..however I am working days & he is working afternoons…..you all know how that cuts into our extra-curricular activities (wink wink) I am in bed …asleep when he gets home & he is still snoozing when I get up…he does however get up in the morning to talk to us ( my 16yr old daughter  & me)……but unfortunately…I am not a morning sex kinda gal & don’t even try to wake me up at 1am for sex after I have been asleep since 9pm…..especially when I get up by 5am…damnit!  My hubby on the other hand is a anytime kinda guy….needless to say we are having trouble “connecting” (wink wink) lately. 

 

….so it’s just my daughter & me at home at night….so whatever we have for dinner…I save a serving for my hubby to eat as his lunch the next day….I of course pack his dinner in the morning when I pack my lunch….that seems to be working quite well…..well…I guess we will see how it works…my daughter & I are very interested in the whole juicing/vegetarian  thing…not so sure my hubby will enjoy it…lol

 

….trying to jive everyone daily schedule together is kinda a pain in the ass….especially for someone like me who likes order order order in her life……lol…like that’s happening in my daily life  right now……like I said organized caos – NOT!.....unorganized for damn sure.  My “to do” list is a mile long & growing…..