Seems like a lifetime ago…….

....as I stand at my window looking out at my barely kept flowerbeds and my once beautiful butterfly & garden that I just had to have & enjoyed it to no end all last summer into the fall…however I have come to realize our landscaper/hardscaper saw stupid on our foreheads and $$$$ coming out of our pockets…yep we paid way too much to have him build a garden plot for us.   However I do enjoy the garden.   I think back to this time last year, my days were spend sweating my butt off in the hot sun while working in the garden, the flowerbeds and yard.   It was an endless job that fed my soul; the garden also fed my family & friends for months to come.

Now one year later, my yard  always needs mowed, the weeds just keep coming back no matter how much I weed (ok I really don’t weed as much as I should/could), my garden is full of veggies ( peppers, tomatoes, eggplant, zucchini, gourds, etc), my flowers are in full bloom and I have noticed lots of hummingbirds, no butterflies – yet.   When I have the time, or should I say make the time to spend the day in the yard I feel alive & energized…..so open to the many possibilities the garden has to offer……..but here is problem

Time or lack of time  or lack of give a shit or ok just plain lazy……I am just not sure how women do it.  Especially women with small children.  How do you keep the inside of your house clean, the outside well manicured the weeds at bay, and the garden flourishing? 

Then there is that whole bit where you are suppose to take care of yourself too….like exercise……not to mention doing a 40 hour work week out of the house, meal planning/shopping & prep……clean up – eek   How in the world do you do it all?  

Don’t even get me started on nurturing my children and fulfilling my wifely duties in the sack (or table, sofa, floor,etc hehe)  How do you do it all? Get it all? And be happy while you are doing it? That is the million dollar question.

 

 I have relinquished my pursuit of motherly & wifey perfection…I can say without guilt that my shortcomings are vast and my mistakes many. I yell at my kids & my hubby, forget all sorts of things.  Though I don’t pursue it, SOMETIMES I put on my cape and everything magically falls into place and for a brief moment and I am “Supermom” & "Superwife"

I want it all!

The problem is I cannot have it all at the same time……So what do I do?  Drop my kid at the corner? Kick the hubby out?  hmmmmmmm. Sorry Mitch - just a passing thought.  Turn my yard into a patio for a pool that replaces my garden?  Quite exercising? ( I guess you have to start before you quit). Hire a cleaning lady ( or maybe a house boy  around 25yr old – talk about a dirty house hehe)  Quit my job…….got that one covered, my current gig is up mid Sept.   

Again I ask you…what to do?

How to do it?

How do you do it all??

Its can't be that hard.  The wives on TV seeem to be able to have it & look good doing it....lol  What would June say??? ...where is Oprah when I need her???  Is it more of a matter of having it all or just being happy with what you can do when you can do it?   I am thinking that is the answer.   

Make yourself happy first.  However and whatever makes you happy - do it!

But how???????????????

Crystal Bowersox Saved By Grace

...love hate relationship with my.......

HAIR!   Yep, I said my hair.  Come on ladies we all love our hair one day then hate it the next.  For some of us, the relationship we have with our hair may be not only the longest relationship we ever have but the healthiest and most fulfilling...lol  How sad is that I ask you!

I have been thinking about my hair and what signifigance it has in my life.....I know you are thinkng doesn't this chick have better things to do than obsess about her hair.....well......to be honest I seems to be losing my lovey locks and it is driving me crazy. Its funny how we as women of a certain age start to lose our hair, the doc says it may be stress... she says try not to worry about it.....really?  Oh hell...if I am losing my hair how do I not worry about it...so what happens.....I lose even more.  I could elaborate on all that medical mumbo jumbo but for now I am just gonna move on.

I did a little research on the subject of hair...........hair was a symbol of social status and an ever-changing fashion. Anyone who knows me knows how my hair has changed over the years......lol  sometimes for the better and sometimes I have to ask myself what the hell was I thinking & why did my friends allow me to go out looking like that?!  btw......red oversized glasses????? I am at a loss...lol

We  all have an emotional connection to our hair, as is evident from the amount of time we spend taking care of it, stressing about it, worrying about losing it, coloring it, primping it, and fondling it absentmindedly. But the significance of a full head of hair is more than emotional.  Almost every culture on Earth, past and present, attach at least some social significance to hair. Hair can symbolize strength, virility, affluence, and class!

The story of Samson is perhaps the most famous in the bible when it comes to hair and its secret mystical powers. I know for a fact that hair has power.  I was a blonde for almost a year.....talk about adding a little kick to your step.  Men & women both came out of the woodwork....I was a wanted woman!

Unmarried Chinese girls’ hair was usually worn long and braided while married women combed the hair back from the face and wound into a knot at the nape. The married or unmarried status of the girl could be signified by her hair, thus avoiding any unwanted advances on married women. Chinese girls’ hair heavily influenced their value in the marriage market. A girl without long, luxurious, very black hair was not considered as good marriage material as girls with.   Thats so explains why I spent so many nights eating ice cream and watching chick flicks as a single twenty something - I had short hair! Guys always go after chicks with long hair.

Samurai would cut their hair when defeated in Medieval Japan. In Japan, cutting hair was a symbol of defeat and lost of honor. Japanese girls cut their hair when they have had their heart broken!.     I know first hand the signifigance or release a person feels when they shave their head.  After my daughter died I was in such a low I needed a release or symbol of my personal greif, so I shaved my head.

What about hair color?  My current natural hair color is Raspberry Creme...lol...at least for 28 washes...hehe  What does the coor of your hair say about you? 

In the Dark Ages, red was associated with witchcraft. Probably because the first documented natural redhead, an actual genetic error, appeared in Scotland about this time. Queen Elizabeth gave regal red its proper place in history when her auburn tresses were imitated to reflect royal class.

Blonde has always been considered the most alluring to men. Roman law decreed that yellow or blonde was to be worn by "women of the night," perhaps the first indication that blondes were having more fun.

Centuries later when bleaches were developed, Hollywood's blonde bombshells put the angelic image to rest and created the blonde "bad girl" who is synonymous with sexy.

While brunettes, who make up more than 60 percent of the population, never got the reputation or social attention that blondes

So what is your emotional connection to your  hair?  At this point I just hope my hair hangs around long enough to build a solid longlasting fulfilling relationship with me!