...in a rut

…isn’t it funny that when we are in a rut…for whatever reason…it affects the rest of our life….our life suffers…..we get to the place when we drudge thru everyday thinking that life is miserable….we start to think there is no hope for change…..so being in a rut is like a snow ball rolling down the hill…it gathers more & more till it consumes you…..

…the tricks our minds play on us….they get all jammed up in a certain pattern of thinking…like a broken record…we keep hearing the voices in our head repeating negative thoughts…..settling on one way of thinking eventually closes out minds…..our same tired thoughts  & beliefs narrow down our thought processes & we get stuck….we get stuck on what we think in our minds the way things should be…how things are suppose to work out…

…we all know what happens when we repeat these patterns & behaviors….they get us nowhere….which actually leads us back to where we initially started..in a rut.  Getting mentally stuck in a rut keeps us from enjoying the growth life has to offer…we get frustrated & pissed when we finally realize that nothing is changing…

…frustration…anger …depression play a huge role on our physical health…over eating…not sleeping..lack of interest in sex..etc..etc..etc…we become off-kilter…mental & emotional imbalance…..we have all been there…I  think I am there right now…..I think mine comes from fear..fear of the unknown.

…I have read Eckhart Tolles books….I think maybe I need to reread to get myself in check…..he says our minds are tools that help us solve our problems & create solutions…our thoughts are choices to help us navigate from one situation to another….when we allow our minds to get caught in overdrive…like being stuck in the past ..or worrying about the future…..our thoughts can embed themselves & infect our minds therefore emanating in our lives through our emotions & behaviors.

…..most of our internal thoughts are self criticism..judgments…delusions….assumptions and imaginary situations….the questions is how do you let them go…stop listening to them….are we defined by our thoughts?  Should we define ourselves by our thoughts?  ..if that is so then I am here to tell you I am one crazy overweight good for nothing whacked out middle aged droopy boobed bitch…..

…..stopping the constant noise in our minds takes awareness & dedication to relax…so much easier said than done….moving forward truly means allowing our minds to live in the present…..

…getting unstuck is a process…remembering our truest state of freedom…letting go of self imposed….self created limitations…..being kinder ..less judgmental with ourselves….its a battle…a mental & spiritual batter worth fighting ….its takes dedication & sell awareness to break those negative habits & patterns…….to create the self we were born to be.