..well....I am 50 yrs & almost 10 days old....life is kinda at a
crossroads of sorts for me....there are two paths...I get to chose either my
life...the life I create from this point on...or the “No longer an option”
path.......for me...I choose my life.....I choose to keep moving forward
...getting stuck in the past..crying over the woulda..shoulda..coulda....is No
longer an option.
.... brings me to what in my life is no longer an option...accepting
the realization that I will never have the body I had at 21.....or finally
coming to grips with the fact that the gal I see in the mirror is actually
ME....the person that other people see..not just a temporary detour from the 25
yr old face that is permanently imprinted in my mind’s eye....hot young perky
boobied me is no longer an option...I can be an acceptable old gal of
50....throw on some red pumps and reveal a slightly saggy décolletage......I can
ever walk out the door feeling like I have it all going on....I look hot &
anything could happen....gone...gone...gone...I am not even in the game
anymore.
...I have to
say....that game...did it..lived it...done it..over.....not interested ....the
tradeoffs.....when I good out..sure I wanna look good....sure I enjoy
attention....but I am not preoccupied with my hair...LOL...I have
none...hahaha.......or my make up & who may notice ...I actually would
rather be in the moment...in real time...the opinions of others mean less to
me...sometimes my mouth overrides my brain...my mouth overflows with
crap....whatever I am thinking just comes out with out reason....not to hurt
others...just its time I out “me” out there...! I am gonna laugh louder...hug harder....cry more....kiss longer.....love better...understand & accept others........................................all in high heels ..of course
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