..I
hear those words on a daily basis since May 17, 2013…the day I shaved my head…I
blogged about me shaving my head…..but I really never elaborated as to the whys
& the how comes…….
…why…turning
50 was a huge mile stone in my life….almost as though I felt a cosmic shift or
enlightenment of sorts from within….I was preparing to start a new chapter in my life…a chapter in
which I felt for the first time I was coming into my own pre say……a rebirth of
sorts……..after spending many years wandering…I felt it was time….time to tap
into the person I was….the one I kept hidden….once…19 yrs ago after a terrible
loss I cut my hair extremely…I mean extremely short…..I felt I needed to focus
internally as opposed to externally in order to heal my heart. So in a way…at
50.. I am kinda doing the same thing….just not out of sorrow…..more out of
celebration of me.
…going into the whole head shaving thing
my intentions were not to make light of anyone who has lost their hair for
medical reasons…my decision to shave my head was my decision. It has nor has
anything what so ever to do with anyone else….
….it amazes me how people….strangers…men &
women have reacted to me & my bald head…..I have always been very social
& outgoing…..but there is a real change…people are nicer to me…they really
are…..I have to assume it is because they think I am ill……..how sad is that
that people are only nice when they think they person they are dealing with is
ill…..WOW! I went to the DMV on my
birthday to get my plates renewed & a new driver’s license….a few people
were ahead of me in line……we all know that the employees of the DMV have a
reputation of being difficult to deal with & not so nice………well there sure
were nice to me that day…..everyone in line was as well…..people them me go
ahead of the…no shit…I know…hard to believe….I even said no thank you &
they insisted…..the folks at the counter were more than friendly…..the gal
renewing my license asked me not once but twice if I has any illness that would
cause problems driving….she didn’t believe me when she asked me the first time
& I said no. LOL The
fellow who took my picture for my license handed it to me & said that was
the best picture he had taken all day……oh pleeeze……a 50 yr old overweight bald
woman w/ glasses…….come on mister. lol
….people’s
reaction to be being bald is kinda exciting…intriguing & seems to captivate
them….I actually get similar reactions from men & women…in terms of how
they look at me…I think it shocks people..catches them off guard…some seem to
enjoy checking me out while others look away as fast as possible…it is kinda
funny…..women have come right out & asked me if I had cancer…always being polite..but
curious…men on the other hand don’t say a word..not one word…..a friend of mine
the other day said her hubby would divorce her if ever she shaved her head…..I
looked at my hubby & asked him what he thought…..if he ever considered
divorce or even being angry because I shaved my head……he said without batting
an eye….”Your hair is not Lisa, I married Lisa”……OMG – I loved him for saying that…most
of all I love him for who he is & how he loves me…..hair or no hair.
…a
few women have commented that being bald suited me…I have to say I do have a
nice shaped head..lol a couple have even
expressed that they wish they were as brave as me…brave enough to shave their
heads…I know shaving my head was a bold move on my part..but brave….uh no….
being brave never entered my mind…….it has absolutely nothing to do with
bravery…
…it didn’t take me long to recognize
that people got a bit nervous around me….they didn’t know if my baldness was
from a nasty disease..or chemo…..I think if confessed them…..to see me w/o hair
but yet looking healthy, happy & laughing ….not knowing how to interact
with me….the unknown gets ya every time.
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