….Mo
knew I was joking….although secretly I would so love to be there lurking in the
bushes…..watching my baby grl as she carves her own way……. I know Mo is an
absofuckenloootly magnificent young lady on a journey to greatness!
…and
I know this is her journey..not mine…..I could not be any prouder of the person
Mo has become……I will ALWAYS be in her corner no matter what…..and she knows
that full well…..and I am over the top excited for her to start her
journey….but the idea of being away from her stings a bit…
…as I was drifting off to la la land last
night it all of a sudden dawned on me that I won’t see my MoMo everyday….laugh
if you must but in that moment..the idea of not seeing my little grl everyday
cut me to the quick…..it was an overwhelming feeling of anxiousness…..I can’t
explain it……a sudden realization that rocked me to the core
…..now I find myself trying to process the whole college thing…..
…going off to
college …everything is going to change….for Mo.. for all of us….even
puppy……there will be an empty bedroom….less noise…less laundry…fewer
groceries……and an over load of emotions/feelings…..it’s like we are going in
completely different directions. But not really…..its more parallel…we are will
be trying to manage growth….attachment & separation…..creating new
identities…..navigating new beginning……talk about a major undergoing for all of
us…..of course our main objective is to help MoMo navigate her new normal……w/o
mom & dad hanging around…..its kinda funny…the whole point of parenting is
to raise your kids to be resilient…curious…competent & capable to what the
outside world has to offer…..but it doing so is so sad….go figure…
……MoMo being
college-bound knows full well & is so ready to embark on this new
adventure…..and extraordinary journey…..leaving home….and all its
familiarity….to unsupervised self-management……there is not a doubt in my mind
that my daughter is going to excel…..as I said before…MoMo is destin for great
things….. dropping her off at college for the first time…me trying to look
buoyant instead of sad & miserable is gonna be both terrifying &
liberating……it will be the first time my hubby & I will live together w/o
kids…… what will we do?????????????
…all that focus & attention we have lavished
on MoMo will be focused on ourselves for the first time ever….we will have more
time to pursue our own interests…all the things we were either too busy…too tired….too
preoccupied to focus on…..we will have the time….hopefully we will find the energy..lol I for one look forward to discovering the new
normal……it’s gonna be a lotta fun…..I think…lol
…I know this MoMo heading off to college &
me being sad & excited is completely
normal……I take pride & joy seeing MoMo make her way so confidently & capably
into this world…..doing exactly what she is supposed to do….follow her path to GREATNESS. …my plan…..to meet the new normal w/ optimism…enthusiasm…..humor….grace……….and
a few……dozen shots of tequila…….
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