….for the most part I am a happy go lucky
kinda gal…..always laughing & joking……I have a good life…a loving hubby…awesome
kids….great grandkids…all are happy & healthy…..I am truly blessed…..but yet I have a tendency to feel
down..not like in a dramatic suicidal way….more like dreary mist kinda way… days
when I just wanna stay in bed….not answer the phone….not even interested in FB….not
really sure what prompts me feeling so lost…..work stress….not really – I like
my job…..health – maybe my endless battle w/ weight…..who knows why I feel so
bleak at times….what’s worse is that I feel guilty for being so sad when I have
so much to be happy about…..
…..yes I take a small doze of Prozac daily….I
have been doing that for a few years….doc thought it would take the edge off
when I started the “change” lol….not
sure if it works or not…but I keep taking it every day…I have to wonder if in
some way being sad can actually be good for us……think about it….when we are sad
we seem to think much more deeply about stuff…..maybe sadness helps us put
things in prospective….maybe I am reaching…..but there could be some truth in
it…
..it is very possible that sadness….depression
help change the course of our lives…it could even make us more resilient and
even creative…think about it…..how may great works of art.. written…painted… or
comedy have come from folks who were in a dark place….is there any truth to the
statement that the main purpose of depression is for us to stop & take a
deep look at ourselves & our lives???
I think maybe so…
..for me these blah periods of my life are
for reflecting on what’s really going on….what’s making me happy…or unhappy…it’s
a time to re-evaluate the direction I am headed….a time to re-adjust my expectations
of myself & others…so in a nut shell..maybe
being in a sadness fog can be a
good thing….it forces you to take stock of
your life….the things that you can learn about yourself in the process
is limitless….
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